Welcoming you and me

This entry came in late for 2009, coz I've been so tight up with last quarter end plus I need to back up for my office mate who went off for maternity leave. Last quarter closing was like madness. With the economic downturn, you can feel the heat and tense all around the corner. Orders were canceled at last min call, customers prefer to halt investment and convert everything to cash, which caused inventory to pile up and revenues reversed. And so I have extra work on returning those machines back to plant. Having calls with Dublin at odd hours to resolve issues and at the same time trying to comprehend their words, it can be stressful. They can sometimes sounds so Irish and trust me..I do sounds so Melayu. Urhh..that's why I prefer emails so that I didn't missed out important points.

Oh well, my 2008 was so much of a reconciling, screening, cleansing and dispositioning year. And a lot of unpredicted avenues as well. Be it in my career or personal life and even the political views have broadened to different horizon.

My early months of the year, was a career struggling phase. I was stuck in some office politics, suffocating me into space that I just need to call it off. I can't deal with hypocrites and suckers, and getting out of that job, makes my life more sensible. I know we all have to struggle to get what we want in life. But I also believe, struggling must also be in a healthy way and not miserable. And that's what important - to be happy with what you're dealing with.

Then baby Qistina came into my life. She's the unpredictable that gives me such happiness that can never be described. It's true that when she smiles, I felt like the whole world really smiled with me. She makes me feel that I am a lovable person and loving her is the best thing I can do.

Being in the Center somehow makes you feel good. Though I have passed the so called opportunity for better career prospects, it had somehow equipped me with vital information on how things run in the Center and most importantly how the top management thinks. Once you know how they think, it’s easier to give what they want upfront rather than having them told you how they want it. And that what makes me on top of their list konon. Friends and colleague still come to seek advises, all sorts that is. You name it - when they wanna resign, when they wanna switched roles, when they broke ups with boyfriends and can't concentrate on work, when they have problem with maids, when they need a sewing kit, when they have breast engorgement, how to eat a lot and maintain slim, how to keep eyebrows well trimmed, how..how..how..They need me when they wanna buy perfumes for their kids, and even the cleaner will ask what’s the time everytime she sees me. Pergh..! And I feel good, sebab rasa macam bagus je..jawatan kecik tapi very influential gitew..Ahaks..perasan. Tu belum kes bila budak-budak gila accounting panggil Diva depan orang ramai dan tanye bila album nak keluar.. arghh!! Gila..I met new friends as well. I’ve made good network with Helpdesk guys. When I have problem with my thinkpad, no need to raise ticket. They would just fix the problem immediately via remote/net meeting (it allow somebody else to have control over your machine while you watch him fixing it. Scary though). And that’s very helpful to my work.

My new boss is just great. He’s one of the old timer in the company. His work values are so different with those young and new-gila-kuase managers that have no substance. He even apologized to me on behalf of the company for what the management has done to me while I was on my previous job. And I’m so glad that he’s my boss though I can sense it won’t be that long.

My relationship with Darlius is getting better and being 10 years older than me gives a lot of advantages. He’s like my future – where I can predict the right step I should be taking. And being a person who always think that she’s always right and clever, Darlius is like my cikgu to makes me feel that I’m not that really clever and there’s a lot more tricks that I need to learn. Heheh. But being a man and even 10 years older, they are still subject to emotion immaturity. Gaduh-gaduh tu biasa la. Sedang kan lidah lagi tergigit..sapu ubat balik..then boleh la gigt betul-betul..Hiks..

End of the year, I've seen many broken marriages where divorces were seemed to be the only resolutions. My deepest sympathy and my pray that life will continue to be better for both.

Last year and so far, I managed to control myself in terms of spending. All cash and no credit cards usage. And I think I’ll stick to it. It’s more safer I guess - to spend within your means. I managed to dispose off my apartment and alfa is now on debt free ride. Sometimes I got over excited to buy new cars like mazda rx8 ke..tapi pikir-pikir macam malas pulak nak berhutang. And in terms of money, I guess the best part was when I fought for my salary increment. I totally rejected my increment coz I believe I deserved more. Giving all justifications and layout all my achievements through out the year, I managed to get what I want. Boss thinks that I’m one hell of a girl. I told him that if I can’t fight for myself, how do you think I wanna fight for the company (konon). Wuhuu..

And yesterday, I just turned down an offer to do internal auditing. Internal auditing has always been my love and forte. Imagine the exposure I would have, doing auditing with the worldwide team, to be able to travel around the world where hotels would be your home. Huhu..but I have to shelf that dream for now, just for Qistina. I can’t afford to be without her for months, be it for 1 day. She’s my priority now.

And last week, I just turned another year older. I’m blessed and thankful for the health though I wish I could stay at this age all the time. I just love being in this age – mentally and spiritually stable, wiser and stronger. Body nampak macam Boxster tapi sebenarnya pakai enjin Perdana V6 je. Hehe..Alhamdulillah.

And so now, closing dah abis and Ana has came back from her maternity leave, that’s why this entry was a bit too long and macam lame je..and it’s about time for lunch. Report tak siap lagi..sebab Friday so rasa macam malasss je.

I can sense and hope that this year will be a great year for me and I wish well to all readers.

Happy 2009 and let's pray and hope for a peaceful world.